McLovin, Willi girl, nae nae and all my soul singin sistas
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McLovin, Willi girl, nae nae and all my soul singin sistas
]]>Songs that describe my various emotions and mindsets for this summer
"Just because you didn't know, dosn't mean anyone was trying to hide it from you " Ebony Doll
]]>As I look back I realized I have too many regrets that keep effecting my future......but all of them are unexplainable I can't tell you why ikept calling that guy till he didn't even wanna look at me anymore....I didn't have a crush on him(not in the slightest), he didn't owe me money, and he was rude but for some reason I could not leave him alone LOL, I always do that to some one and then find myself wondering why, oh why??? And through the prosses of writing this post I think I've brought myself some understanding. if you know me. Then you know some of my bigest faults are that I'm a perfectionist, emotional, bi-polar, depressed, self centered, clingy,too nice to people, too trust I talk to much and all in all am pretty annoying lol these things normaly make me cry because its true butt hen again its not. because only people that I feel akward around think any of those things, if I'm not nervous then everyone around me calls me perfect(yea I know.......how strange) but two of those faults are most diffenitly true, I am a perfectionist throught and throught and yes I am a bit self centered hahaha that's how come I can write then entire post on the subject of me with out even having to think about what I want to say(I'm my favorite subject) yes its a flaw but at the same time it dosn't bother me much.....until now those too small flaws that I happen to like about my self....are the root of all of my other flaws, go back to the guy I text stalked till he started to hate me lol well there was no reason for me to keep texting him because I had NO reason to BUT I'm a perfectionist, so when I thought he didn't like me very much (that's kind of a reason to stop right) but not for me I kept trying to show him how cool I was, then he thought I was to hyper I was around him all the time to show how serious I was, then he thought I was wierd so I worked at showing him how normal I was and then he thought I liked him(he didn't like me at all and belive me I was not attracted to him) so I worked at showing him how unattracted to him I was LOL believe me the whole thing was a disaster and it was all because I was too much of a perfectionist to leave things alone and I was so stuck on myself to realized that his openion wasnt that big a deal in the first place. Today I'm starting fresh. So when ever I feel self concious I will back off the sitchuation and when ever I find my self going overboard I will stop before everyone I know thinks imma phycho lol
]]>My dad taught me that if you put your trust God and do what you know is right then everything will work out for the better....no matter what the circumstance.
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